So, as many of my friends and family will know, I have had one of the best years of my life living it up in Bournemouth. Alongside the partying and fun, I’ve been studying at University. But, the year didn’t turn out as I’d hoped. Something personal happened that meant I needed to retake an exam during summer. The realisation that I had failed was something that was really hard for me to comprehend. More to the fact that many people pointed out to me that nobody fails University and it is easy….This really affected me and knocked my confidence. There have been many times over the summer where I have severely considered whether the University route was right for me. I questioned whether I was doing the right thing or not. I don’t give up that easy, but I had to reconsider what I wanted.
University isn’t easy. If it was, everyone would have degrees and they wouldn’t be worth getting. Just because you don’t normally hear of people failing doesn’t mean that it doesn’t happen.
It’s a norm in our society for most 18/19 year olds to go to uni and it’s expected that we should know what we want to do. Before we have even left school we are bombarded with life questions. What job would you like to do when you are older? Where are you going to Sixth Form? What are you going to study at University? Where are you going to University?
There is such a pressure for us to know it all, have our lives planned out and pass everything we do. For us to all be clones, pass everything and follow the same paths, albeit in different subjects. Everyone the same. But we aren’t everyone. Each of us are individuals, yet put through an education system that expects everyone to take the same path and do the same things.
I can proudly say that I have made it into second year with a 2:1. It’s not been easy to get here but it’s made me even more determined to do well.
So if you’re reading this, just remember that it’s ok to not know how you want to live your life. Take time to work it out and know that University isn’t always for everyone. If things go wrong, that’s ok -we need them to learn! We aren’t all clones and things don’t always work out. But there’s always something good to come out of it.
I know for sure that this summer was a good opportunity for me to truly realise what I want and what I need to do to get myself there. Who knows what will happen next year but for now….
Second year, come at me.